awful day

i donno whats wrong with me.
honestly, i cant walk my life properly.
i am actually intending to work full time,
then find a part time job. then rent a
room outside.

now i am pulled down to bridal boutique
by my mom. i cant make a choice.
i cant bear to see people making their
choices, and i just have to watch.

i cant do anything, it sucha a big burden.
i just wanna earn lot of money and let
my mom stayed at home without worrying
about money.

i am trying my best.

and my sister, she can be rebellious
sometimes, i donno how to deal with her.
i tried not to shout at her, and yet she
shouted me. just very disappointed, she can
just hit my mom like that. when she gets
what she want, she don even cared
what she promise to do. kids nowadays...
and sometimes i don even bother taking
her out.

she can shout at me, telling me to get
out of the room, when i did nothing.
hais, sometimes life's hard.
everything is upside down, trying to
juggle with my life, making right choices.

i think i should really try hard, to be
an air stewardess, so i can get stable
income to stuck my mom at home.

hais... life's difficult. so difficult.
i can't rest now, just keep on going,
i guess...
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