it's a sickening day


i've been sick fer 1andhalf week. and still not
recovered. i donno how long this gonna last.
but i sure know i'll be dying if don recover.

today, overtime. pathetically tired.
i dragged myself to finish my packing of documents
by tonight. really sick, heavy flu.

i addicted to mahjong already, my hand gets
itchy if i don play. but sometimes we don play
cash. there's five of us in our group, two girls are
sisters. so there's four different houses, as long as
we want, we could play at any homes.

funny.

i was early fer work today, surpisingly.
bought macdonald breakfast, pushed myself to finish
the breakfast, i've urge of throwing up.
but iam not pregnant, haven't had sex since.
i am just sick, and i didn't had my lunch.

i am stucked in thinking, whether or not to go
united kingdom to study my university now.
we've the credit, but i hope it would be september than
january. i can't possibly celebrate my 21st there, a
big NO WAY.

so i've to think to plan. well, my future is most
important, i need some time to think really.
too much coming in, nothing's going out.

money always an issue. i've to keep thinking how
to earn more money. but only higher education can earn
u sufficient expenses.


.... deep in thought and yet dilemma.
Blogged @ 22:10
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