maybe single is always the kind of life for me.

i miss again.. i hid the deepest tearing pain at the
bottom of my heart. lost in my own mind, finding a way
out, trying to find the right path for myself. hoping there's
someone there at the exits.

you all should know what it means.


been clubbing since thursday, three freaking tired days.
and i've smoked fer three consecutive clubbing days.
thurs- zirca trance, rebel rnb. friday- zirca trance.
saturday- REBEL! R&B. the music is real hot and sexy..
surpisingly, when i went clubbing on thurs i still can reach
workplace on time the next day.

thursday, we queued fer 1&half hours at very super long
queue, then we realise is only fer people who've received
text msg. wtf, but the most fcuked up thing is,
u paid fer zirca, u can't enter rebel!.
u gotto pay TWO ENTRY FEES. damn awesome! arghhh..
but we didn't pay fer it, we sneak in when there's no security
guards on the watch. REBEL! is a MUST-GO place.

friday- at the front of the queue. went wit bestfriend,
her boyfriend..and bestfriend's sister.
ling-jie also tagged along. and shewear until
damn hot damn sexy. bestfriend and bf just go there
see performance and show. but it was a happy nite.
and the drinks are free flow, and we could choose our seats,
cos we went in first. good seats.
we dance trance, the music i dislike most. but it has
those RnB remix. so, i danced with them.
went home pretty early as i was pretty tired.

saturday- wake up at 12.45pm, received jessie's sms.
rush to take a shower, then rush out. till then,
i missed 4 MEALS! damn hungry.
reach serangoon garden, they haven't reach -.-"
waited and waited. damn hungry damn damn hungry,
so i went to have a can of ICE LEMON TEA.
they took a cab, so i hop on and went to the caring home.
i was surpised to see the amount of disabled people there,
a feel of my deepest sympathy for them.
but i'm not god, i can't re-structure
them, but i could help, volunteer and spend time wit them.

we played heart attacked, they called 'bingo'.
prizes are very simple, shampoo, shower cream,
nivea cream bla bla. but those prizes are very useful
fer them at least i helped two of them win prizes.
so contented.

simple joy, oh simple joy..

then went eat mac with germaine and jessie.
we were having our hungry ghost festival moments,
hehe. we sat at mac, chit chat.
the weather was humid, argh. before i went home,
i took jessie to buy sunflower fer her friend.
then i went home, lying flat
on my bed, can't move. been shaking and dancing
for past few days. arching back,
but i had a nice time there.

around 8, went to meet bestfriend and boyfriend
fer movie, beverly hills chiwawa. fcuking awesome
and funny. then head straight down to REBEL!
i swear, for this three days i didn't spend over 40 dollars.
so awesome.
was finding for ling-jie when i reached,
so i went in first. then i saw her coming in,
so i stood there, this security come ask if i am
coming fer the first time, i look at him
and said a firm 'no'. then he started tellin me
it's his first day, so i shook his hand
and wish him a good day at work. brendan, his name.

i went crazy, went to make bff wit the store bag keeper.
call her sayang. i was really geeela.
so she will remember me for sure (:
we hyper up ourselves, was watcing street dancers dancing,
and they're really good. met a rapper there, wayne.
and a few street dancers. overall, they were great.
after a few hours, we went mad becos we were
pole dancing. argh.. awkward.

it's just that moment to relieve ourselves from stress,
sadness. i felt really happy fer that 5hours.

sunday, was my plain jane day. wake up,
went tpy central wit
bff, her bf, my sis(s). went home play mahjong.
that's about.

christmas coming.. and jingle bell rocks.
this christmas, again. single. but a bunch of singles to
accompany and that feels much better.

this sunday, wenhan that ass coming back,
and he BETTER bring me some apple strudel.
and please, for goodness sake my mother won't
eat it. i've to wake up super early to fetch
this ass wit bff and hj.
i hope i'm not playing this saturday..

i think i'm going to be sick. my body don't feel right.
this coming friday, my colleague transferring
to houston to work, so farewell party,
hope i don't go home too late.
and today..farewell LUNCH,
cedele or burger king ? hmm.. no appetite.
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dear fairy god-mother,

just let be the cinderella for one day.
life's too hard, i know iam considered the fortune ones
from the unfortunates.
but i just need a good rest from life for awhile.
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